How could I not be consumed by You?

You will be my song

You will be my song

 

About a year ago, I wrote about Lindsay McCaul and Andi Rozier, two of the most amazing worship leaders I’ve had the privilege to know or be led by in church. Recently, another fantastic artist has crossed my path, named Matt McCoy. Matt leads worship at Harvest Bible Chapel alongside Lindsay and Andi. I’m not sure how new he is to Harvest, but he’s fairly new to me. The other day, I purchased his latest album “Heaven Calling“, and I love it. Four songs on the CD made it immediately to my “Favorite Worship” playlist, and — especially given my last post — I felt compelled to write about one of them, entitled “You will be my Song”…   

Sovereign Lord, Your hands unfold
And stretch out skies above the world
How can I not be consumed by You?
You’re far above the earthly things
The heavens bow, all nature sings
How can I not be consumed by You?   

You will be my song, forever
You will be my one desire
You will be my song
God I’ll always love You   

Oh matchless King, God on high
Creation speaks of beautiful love
And how could I not be consumed by You?   

You will be my song, forever
You will be my one desire
You will be my song
God I’ll always love You   

Where would I be if You weren’t with me?
Who would I be without You?
Without You?   

You will be my song, forever
You will be my one desire
You will be my song
God I’ll always love
I’ll always love… You   

In my last post about another song — “Be Magnified” — I talked about how I imagined the author’s call to magnify God in “his song” to be a euphamism for “his life” … to honor and point to and magnify God with everything he does and says and is. And that the sum total of his life is essentially the “song” of his life.   

This song asks and answers the question, “Who will be my song?” Combining themes, I’m asking, “Who will be my life?”   

I guess the question isn’t terribly dissimilar from questions like “What will you do when you grow up?” or “What will your life demonstrate for all to see?” … or even (a classic James MacDonald question), “To what will you give your life?” I like another way he puts it even better, “On what will you spend your life?”  This one’s probably my favorite. 

But the statement that “God will be my song” really gets at the heart of these questions with the answer, “My entire life will be totally consumed by God.” God’s priorities. God’s principals. God’s presence. God’s perceptions. God’s promises. God’s power. God’s people. If God loves it, wants it, thinks highly of it, commands it, asks me for it … then I’m all about it. And if He doesn’t, then I’m not.   

Um … totally intimidated. I don’t even come close to living like that.   

God has (rightly) been called life’s “one magnificent obsession“. But I think if I were honest, I’d have to say that my life’s obsession has been to be good enough. Good enough for what, I’m not really sure. But good enough. If I’m “good enough”, then I won’t feel afraid or alone. And then I’ll be happy. At least that’s what the voice in my head keeps telling me.   

The Bible says differently, however, as does Matt McCoy. In his song — in place of my fear and anxiety — Matt is advocating worship…   

  • God is the Creator of the universe…  (Sovereign Lord, Your hands unfold and stretch out skies above the world)
  • God is holy and amazing, and even the rocks will give God that recognition if we fail to (see Luke 19:37-40) …  (You’re far above the earthly things; the heavens bow, all nature sings)
  • God is not comparable to anything else in the universe, ruling over even the swirling space dust in a billion galaxies, and yet He loves me…  (Oh matchless King, God on high, creation speaks of beautiful love)

But why stop there? How about some of these…  

  • God sent His Son to die for my sins (Romans 5:6-8)
  • God has loved me with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3) and enduring faithfulness (Isaiah 54:10)
  • God’s mercies, in response to my constant sin and rebellious heart, are new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23)
  • God is a strong tower, where I can run and hide when I’m afraid, and He will shelter and protect me from the storms of life (Proverbs 18:10)
  • God is my Father, and gives to me good things like no earthy father ever could (Luke 11:11-13)
  • God knows me — He knit me together in my mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13), counts the hairs on my head (Matthew 10:30), and collects my tears in a bottle (Psalm 56:8) — and loves me anyway
  • God wants me to experience the fullness of kingdom life (John 10:10)
  • And I could probably go on like this for hours

Worship is acknowledging God’s rightful place, both in the universe generally and in my life personally. God is the one and only person or thing in my life that should inspire awe, truly captivate my attention, draw me completely in, be sought after to fill the holes created by my deepest longings. And God is worthy of all that and more. Matt would absolutely say that God can be trusted if I come to Him. And in my head, I know that’s true. But my heart is harder to convince.  

My fears may be ridiculous, but I have them. They’re real to me. I guess everyone has “their thing”. If only I could give those fears to God. If only I believed in God’s love for me enough to set my anxiety and controlling nature aside so I could run to Him. He clearly promises that I will find rest for my soul (Matthew 11:28-30). But my soul seems to be like a rebellious teenager. First of all, I just want my way. Sigh. And secondly, I’m scared that my parents (God) don’t understand me and won’t give me what I think I need (something new and shiny and wonderful, like “happiness”) if I come to them and ask. 

The bridge of Matt’s song asks two other important questions: “Where would I be if You weren’t with me? Who would I be without You?” The teenager would ask these questions with glib, immature, untempored joy, hoping to get away from his parents into a (more attractive) world of self-discovery and independence. (Read Luke 15:11-32.) At least there’s enough distance between me and “rebellious teenager” to know that I don’t really want to know the answers to these questions. But I fear that’s exactly where my stubborn heart is leading me. 

So, for me, the path is clear…  “Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.” (1 Peter 5:6) And the very next thought isn’t bad either, “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (vs 7) 

It blows my mind, as much as God loves me, that I’m too proud or too scared or too something-else-that-I-wish-I-wasn’t to come to God … who is real, who loves me, and who has promised me rest. But I’m working on it. More than anything I need to pour over God’s Word and internalize God’s promises. One of the big ones I’ve just recently discovered is in 1 John 3: “How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! … This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.” (1 John 3:1,19-20)

Guess I know what my next memory verse will be.

What about you? What keeps you from running to God? What broken cistern are you turning to instead of living water (Jeremiah 2:13)?

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About Jeff Block

Lover and follower of Christ. Husband and father. Writer and seminary student. On a long journey, learning to swim with the current of God's love and walk with Him in the garden in the cool of the day.
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